Food Pain

Food. It's yummy. It's delicious. Its satisfying. Its my struggle. Sometimes I find myself aimlessly hovering around the fridge and pantry. I'm not hungry, why am I hovering? I felt Holy Spirit ask me that exact question. WHAT AM I FEEDING??? You can be addicted to many things but with drugs and alcohol, everyone sees those signs. But what about things we can hide? Unlike drugs and alcohol some things are so easily accessible and so easy to cover up. Why is it God gives me something good and I turn it in to a crutch? Why is enough, never enough?

Father God, help me. Help me turn to you for comfort. Help me turn to you for all my needs and all my voids. Dad, you are enough, you are all I need! Forgive me for the things I've done, forgive me for eating my way through my pain, grief and boredom. I love you. Holy Spirit guide me, when I'm about to walk into that dark place, remind me you are with me, and you have given me the strength to turn around and walk away. God, thank you for sending Jesus. Jesus, thank you for coming as flesh and blood, you know what it feels like to be tempted and just like you, we have the tools to turn away from temptation. Father God, thank you for making our weaknesses our strengths. You are so good., you're so amazing. Thank you for what you are doing in my life and what your about to do. By the power of the Holy Spirit, in Jesus name, Amen.